I had to compose a back cover bio for the book. Why, in the end, should I become serious?
Dana Mugavero has been writing for 40 years. During that time she maintained sporadic employment, was thrown out of 4 bands, quit smoking, disappointed a lot of people, co-wrote and performed in the offbeat Cabaret show “Sugarfuhk”, indulged heavily in mental illness, missed out on a lot of opportunities,defied the odds, began and gave up on several artistic endeavors, helped a lot of people with their problems, found and developed an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ, and kept a 2002 Volvo running throughout, though not necessarily in the best of condition. Dana is currently working on an edgy and embarrassing recollection of living as an absolute lunatic in the 80’s.
It took decades but here it is: the perfect use of Devo’s “Gut Feeling”: “The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou””, directed by Wes Anderson and music by, who else, Mark Mothersbaugh. I love this scene. Every second works.
As to where I have been and why I haven’t posted….I am a shit show. Lately, I am a dreadful shit show.
Feeling nostalgic over my cabaret show “Sugarfuhk”. My friend and I just started writing and acting outrageous and soon it was a bizarre and fabulous show. This was our first song, first time we put on our wigs and make up. I love the shitty web cam quality. It speaks to our half baked style.
I am the one playing the broken accordion.
I’ve sort of become paralyzed with fear over uploading this book to publish it. I had absolute confidence about it. Then I woke up and didn’t.
Has this ever happened to you? What did you do? HELP!
I have an eating disorder. I struggle with ways to starve myself or get pills to keep me from eating. I run for the things that will weaken my body and then when I look too thin and just….sick…I am happy. I’ve fought this for years now. I have not acted on this in some time. I actually became overweight. Yes I’ve lost enough to look really good I guess. But I want to look severe.
A little heavy on the Photo Shop from too much amphetamine, but here I am at 104 pounds in 2008. I was bones. And it still feels like I never looked better.
If this shame isn’t enough, there is this:
“Shun immorality. The immoral man sins against his own body. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you which you have from God? You are not your own: you were bought with a price so glorify God with your body.” 1 Corinthians 6
That would be me. I am the most self-absorbed blogger on WordPress. I SELDOM read other peoples’ blogs, I want ALL of you to pay attention to me, I am pretty much an asshole.
Even worse is that when I publish this wack memoir of mine I am going to hound you all to buy it. Feel free to tell me to fuck off in advance.
HERE IT IS. THE COVER. NOW I HAVE TO STUFF A BUNCH OF STORIES UNDER IT AND CALL IT A BOOK.
I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD DO THIS.